Daily tasks become null when tragedy strikes


There was a time that I felt in order to be goal-oriented, I had to make a list of the things I wanted to accomplish each day. If they were written down I could check each item off as it was completed. The days every item was checked off were good days, goals met. The other days I would try to justify; it was not my fault someone needed a portion of my time that day, perhaps I was coming down with something, maybe I had just worked too hard the previous day and needed some time to gather my thoughts. And all the while I knew it wasn’t that I needed to be so goal-oriented, certainly not if the goals only were what “I wanted.”

I still make lists, and I do get to check something off once in awhile. The difference is now there are no time constraints, self-imposed or assumed. I’m more interested in being “go” oriented it seems.

There seems to be something that requires me to be away from home, at least for part of the day, most days of the week. If a task is completed at home, it is an exceptional day. If I enjoy the day away from home, that too is an exceptional day.

And then there are those days when something so bizarre happens -- something that overwhelms and just makes you feel like your insides are being ripped out. You don’t understand why bad things have to happen to good people. And suddenly goals and tasks lose all meaning and importance. You realize that you really have never had a day that bad.

I have to say this has been a day like 9/11 that I won’t soon forget. I can’t concentrate on much else. My heart aches for those who lost loved ones, those who were injured, and all the people of the little town of Sutherland Springs. This was their bad day, and I’ve never really had one.

I know our community will come together, join in prayer, and reach out to our sister cities. We are, after all, brothers and sisters in Christ. God help us all.